Thursday, July 24, 2008
These few days
lots of things have been in my mind
its making me confused
really really confused
Recently
i also noticed i've done something wrong
i judge
judging people by look
judging them from top to bottom
oh they'r ugly
not my kind of fren
they are nerds
can't communicate with them
they are stupid
can't communicate with them too
And
Comparing
comparing myself with them
oh i'm smarter than them
they'r not stupid
just less smarter than me
they are more playful than me
they can't do things better than me
i'm sure i'm better than them
they don't pay as much attention like i did during class
their exam results will surely not be better than mine
Haha
thinking back
i suck
i really do
ALOT
Now
i want to say
sorry
sorry to those who i've been judging and comparing the whole time
eventhough u guys will not know who u are
u guys might not read this
i'm still
sorry
And i guess i really am changing huh
after reading the book
this is the 1st time i really wanted to change
wanting to be proactive
wanting not to be reactive
wanting to be happy
wanting not to be emo like i always used to
Now that everytime i'm sad
i'll always try to make myself happy
telling myself
everything will be ok
telling myself
i can do it
But theres still time
where i wanted to shout
i wanted to shout as loud as i can
wanted to shout my heart out
wanted to shout those
sad confusing angry frustrating
things out of me
but i can't find a place to
Sometimes
i really need to go to a place
a place which is
out of the city
out of the town
a place where i can
relax myself
refresh myself
calm myself down
a place
which is close to
mother nature
Tommorow will be a better day
smiles :)
posted at 10:10 PM
